I always feel better and am more relaxed when I know what to expect versus just assuming what something will be like. I have been so anxious about the future daycare plans that I couldn’t stop getting emotional about it. I mean, how many times can you cry about it before it isn’t normal?! In order to make myself better, I needed to explore a few daycares, learn what Jayden would be doing all day and imagine how this will all fit in my life.
Unfortunately, most daycares are running 6 – 18 month waiting lists. Who knew I’d have to plan on going back to work at 15 months before Jayden even popped out of me. Would have been nice for someone to let me know! Anyway… I got a recommendation from a friend on where she takes her baby but it was way farther away than either of us ideally would like to drive. We decided we may as well check it out since she has an opening and is affordable. I wasn’t sure what to expect but the moment I saw the daycare mama, I felt instantly at ease. She is a born caregiver. We were able to talk for a while and really got along well with her! I never thought an in home daycare would be what I wanted but it feels WAY more personal. She talked about working on positives or negatives with Jayden together as a partnership so that he gets the same reinforcement from home or daycare. Jayden gave her and her husband a hug before we left! We left there feeling pretty positive and after visiting a few more standard daycares, we decided we wanted to go with her. She had 2 other families interested in her open spot so it wasn’t a done deal. I called her tonight and she said she LOVED Jayden and would LOVE to have him!! YAY!
I’m still very sad about leaving him but there is something comforting knowing that he will get to play with kids and learn all day. I know he will have a great time and will be in good hands. Plus, I am further along with my job interviews and am actually looking forward to going back to work. I am starting to believe this will be a good situation after all. Let’s see how I feel after the first few days…
